To the girl that I turned away from because I didn't think I could win your heart:

I wonder what it would be like if I didnt give up on you so quickly, just because of pressure from friends and the fact that you're so popular..
Now I don't even dare to face anything that reminds me of you, because I'm scared of the regret that always comes back to hurt me.
You'll probably not remember those two months, since I'm probably just another one of those guys, and moreover, one that randomly popped up.
Perhaps I got intimidated after knowing that there were so many other guys after you. If the exchange didnt happen maybe it would be different.
Like what they say, ignorance is bliss.

When I think back of all these, I really feel like a fool to have stopped persisting..




how are you doing now?




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This is the after effect of listening to sentimental songs =/

we lost the friendlies with NY last friday,
but it's good that it got everyone inspired and eager to get better
as for myself, i shall vow to win my match the next time we play.
if i cant do this, i'll make myself do.. er..
200 pull ups in one day. lol


hospital attachment was just over too.
there was a lot to be learnt.

1. Life as a doctor is crazy. Working hours are 7am to 7pm, with no weekends. And there's a chance of sleepless nights if patients trigger night calls..

2. Getting into medical school isnt as hard as i thought. Leadership experience, 4As, good CCA record, CIP record, and good interview skills will probably guarantee you a place. But its up to you if u wanna make the choice to take up the ownage job.

3. The pay isnt exactly that fantastic. If you want money, go for banking or law.

4. Start watching gory and horror films now to condition yourself to naked organs =P




Somehow all the consultants, students, and medical officers told us never to take up medicine -.-
or else we'll regret..
But i'm still gonna stick with it =)
The consultants and HOs look happy with their jobs despite all they say..

Gonna work hard now! SAT in 2 months =X

next post will be pictures of what happened since holidays began.. haha

Not many things are absolute these days..
People all around always say "it depends on the situation".
The education system even promotes this kind of thinking and mentality.

But are we really mature enough to judge things around objectively and make correct decisions?
Of course we are, right? That's what we all, being so egocentric (sweeping statement) like to think.

My judgement is the best course of action for me.
People think I'm not smart, but they dont know me.
No one can understand the real me.
They don't know what I'm going through.
You all don't have the right to "advise" me, my life has been full of obstacles and failures while yours is filled with success.

These are just some thoughts that people around might have.. Judging from all the posts I see on blogs, personal messages on MSN, and facebook.
Emo culture maybe?
Anyway I see this type of mentality as being self centered and indulging in self pity.
But again, me, who has been widely labelled as ego and stuck up, won't ever understand others' thoughts right?



Hmm it seems that I've digressed a lot from my introduction. If it's an essay I'll have failed already =P

Anyway i was gonna post about lying and why keeping thoughts to yourself are adverse behavioral acts under all circumstances, but I'll keep that for another day =/

good job.. you've finally made me dedicate a post just to you.
i know its not your fault, not intentionally at least, but i really need to vent off some hot air..

you're so dense at times, can't infer what others are thinking or implying, even when it's obvious..
and what's with the attitude of only being concerned about yourself? it's exactly like that of the person who u disliked a lot. well, she has become much better already, but you still can't seem to care for your "friends". doubt im considered one anyway. i'm probably just a commodity that gets used when needed and neglected when not
can't expect much more than this though, judging from your past encounters..
i need more heart and patience..

Just came home from today's performance/gig at paya lebar.
Our first one at a restuarant =P

This time was for the Nanyang Loh Clan, kudos to jun xiang for the contacts.
haha we got a free dinner and even a $200 reward xD
I have to say the organisers are nice, to give us a table of our own..
lol

Though for this we had to learn 2 new songs in 2 weeks.
They wanted chinese songs and some old songs, so here was the lineup:

1. That thing you do
2. 孙悟空 - 五月天
3. Kiss me - New found glory
4. 月亮代表我的心 - Theresa Tang (Deng li jun)

The sound for guitar was too low for the 1st 2 songs (again)
But the last 2 were not bad, especially #4 xD

I didnt expect such a classic chinese 金曲 to be our best received song this time.
Might have been to the large proportion of the middle age population.
They really seemed to like it.

I got a video of it, but i duno how to link from facebook to here.
Can i get some help here?? lol


Anyway here are some photos from tonight

Our table!














Wrong instruments
















This is better =P















With the emcees and stewards =)

Played tennis again today.

The year 4s' training was postponed today, but 3 of them came down to play today.
Wenzhong, Gordon, and Casper if im not wrong..

Wenzhong is damn good. Didn't have to hold back against him at all.
And he only started learning in June. I think he confirm will be playing in the friendlies liao.
And Gordon's incorrect slice serve is good too.

The batch of juniors look very promising.
Now all that's left is for the #$%@#%@#%@!#@ school to approve of us as an official CCA too.
I really hope that sessions wont be on wednesdays if we do become a CCA.
I definitely cannot miss science society meetings..

Oh and Mr Wong and Mr Cheong came today too!
Playing with teachers is fun too :D
They're super consistent. Gonna do it again on friday, i think got Mr Tan KS and Mr Keith Teo also.
Whoo gonna be damn fun against such pros




and lastly, here's something else i'm gonna bitch about =P
on another thought, better not.
gonna hurt some ppl -.-

going for my daily fix of tennis soon.
it's been a year since i last had tennis lessons. gonna take it up again xD
i seriously think im addicted..

anyway holidays dont start for me till 24th november :(
wont be at home for a single full day..

but nevermind, i have enough things in life to be happy about :)